Yes I am that girl, I am the one with flocks of guys around her. Before you bring out your judgmental looks, or your jealous stares let me finish. Do not be fooled I see the looks. I know what you are saying about me, I've heard it all. "what a skank" "How could she have guy troubles she has them all" It does not matter what you think you know, things are different.

I surround myself with guys, its true. I love men. This does not mean I fool around with every man you see me with. It simply means I get along better with men. I like to watch the football game, I love to talk about cars. I enjoy the video games, the anime, and the alcohol. I like the loud music with the obscene comments. I get a kick out of the sexual innuendos and jokes. I do not love Shopping, gossiping, make up, fixing my hair, staying indoors, deep conversations where I poor my heart out and we all cry. No I do not want to hear how you broke your nail today. I would much rather hear how he saw this really awesome 68 mustang completely restored in great condition, to bad neither of us will ever own it.


It's true, I do not always dress like a nun. Yes, sometimes I like to look attractive. Shocker I know, but I do enjoy getting attention for the body God saw fit to give me. Just because I spend my time with guys does not mean I need to cover my body from head to toe. I have breasts, and I have an ass.They both happen to be nice. Hell, I even have legs they aren't the best but they sure aren't the worst.


Here's the kicker, I do in fact have a relationship with one of the guys you might see me with SOMETIMES . However, I am not with more than one of them nor am I keeping them from you.


Yes, I am the friend your guy calls when he is madly in love with YOU but you just had a fight, and he doesn't thing you will want him anymore. Yes, I am the friend your guy calls to practice his proposal with. I am the friend who saw you at the bar, and ENCOURAGED him to go say hi.


I do not want your man, I do not want all the men. I am not the skank you though, I am not the girl who has whatever pick she wants. I am the girl who is putting your whole life together so before you cast that ugly glare at me think twice.


What do you think? Are you that girl? Have you ever thought that about another girl? What about you guys, do you have a friend like that, Or have you always wondered about that girl?

Decisions, they can make or break you. Some are harder than others. Some stress you out more than others.

Those are the ones that everyone wants to fight about. I hate those fights, you are already stressed beyond good health about the decision, and the person you love most wants to fight about it.

I am looking at transferring schools. I have two schools I am looking at. They are in two different states. One would allow me to be close to me "so" who is not mine at all. (long story...) Anyway, obviously I do not want to make my decision based on a relationship that may or may not come through. But at the same time I know that our whole relationship is going to change based on what ever I choose.

Obviously he wants me to be near him, which I want. But, I also want what is best for me which may be this other school. What did this result in? A three hour fight that left me in tears.

Have any of you ever experienced such a emotion wrenching decision?

Have you ever noticed that the longest night is not the one where you are up all night because of some drama. No, those pass quickly. Oh sure it wares you out and you are exceedingly tired but the time flies.

No it is those nights where you cannot sleep. Your mind wonders aimlessly around, though your body screams at you "take your butt to bed!" .

On nights like these I find myself spending way too much time online. I watch tv shows I've missed, I blog, I facebook.
What do you do?